Why I Wrote My Memoir

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Against Such Things is a labor of love conceived after traversing the depths of insanity and despair and coming out somewhat-less-than-unscathed. The concept—the overarching message—being one of HOPE.

Hope. Healing. Healing from complex trauma, from addiction, from incarceration. There IS a new way of life, and I am living proof.

Long and longer I spent wallowing in unresolved wounds, in cyclical self-destructive behavior patterns trying to run from myself, run from my pain.

But, as we all know, no matter where you go, there you are.

Once I finally accepted ME, built the beautiful life of healing and recovery I have today, I realized something pivotal: Just getting out by the skin of my teeth was not enough. It just wasn’t.

I refuse to be one of those panicky, terrified first-class passengers on the Titanic who scurry away in an entirely empty lifeboat whilst others scream and flail and drown in the distance.

And, so, I wrote. I wrote down the pain, the trauma, the tribulation—and eventually—the recovery. I wrote, but not to claim I am some all-knowing all-seeing expert with a magical cure-all solution: NO.

I wrote purely and simply to capture in text my fundamental takeaway: YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE DO RECOVER and SO CAN YOU.

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  1. Jill Ryan Avatar
    Jill Ryan

    Rachel, this is so exciting! How many times a day do you have to pinch yourself, just to be sure it’s really real? YOU wrote a whole, actual book, girl! I really happy for you…can’t wait to read it…

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    1. rachelkaybaldwin Avatar

      Thanks so much, Jill! It is surreal, indeed. I’m so everythingallatonce, haha! It’s super exciting 🤩

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Ama Ndlovu explores the connections of culture, ecology, and imagination.

Her work combines ancestral knowledge with visions of the planetary future, examining how Black perspectives can transform how we see our world and what lies ahead.